June 1, 2009

Thank god this is almost over. I can't imagine being any more tired than I am right at this moment. I don't know if it's an accumulation of the chemo treatments, being in the hospital sick, being extremely anemic or the upper respiratory thing or all of it put together. All I know is that I want it OVER NOW. I can't stand to do anything, include watch tv. The only time I get any peace is when I sleep but then the dog barks at someone walking down the street and wakes me up. Yes, I am cranky. I also don't have a voice so I can't even tell him to be quiet.

I keep telling myself that I only have one more treatment and then I'm done. More than anything, I want one day where I feel good, not tired and can actually interact with my family (and not in a cranky, bitchy way).

My last chemo is June 16th. I hope that by the time we leave for Vegas, I'll have worked through the worst of the side effects and will feel good/comfortable. This truly sucks.