51 seconds left in the game, Pittsburgh is beating Dallas and I'm sipping Maker's Mark. Let's hope that their lead holds til the end of my post.
What have I changed my mind about recently:
MRIs:they're not so bad if you go to the right place.
Cutting down a fresh Christmas tree: I told BDHA last night that I didn't want to go this morning because it was going to be too cold. I did go and discovered I really do need to get myself a hat. A hat that FITS.
Taking the dog for a walk tonight: BDHA is trying to talk me into going...apparently he isn't reading my post as I type...it's TOO COLD OUT THERE.
Thinking pessimistically: This one is hard for me. MFS mentioned when he was home for Thanksgiving week that he viewed me as being a pessimistic person. He wanted to make sure that I was being as optimistic as possible to help get through this. Funny, I always thought of myself as being positive but trying to plan for every possible situtation.
I do find myself saying to myself when asked what I want for Christmas "why bother, it's not like I'll be around to enjoy it much." BDHA and I were in Tarjet and I showed him some Radko Christmas plate settings that I liked. He said we should get them and I said no..too much money. He said, well, after Christmas, when they're on clearance. I said no...because his new wife wouldn't appreciate using dishes that I had picked out. I need to stop thinking that way and I especially need to stop verbalizing it. Now don't anyone get upset. I'm posting this on purpose. I'm saying it here to get it out of my system.
Tomorrow I meet with Dr. B, my PCP. This is a normal check-up. He'll want to know how it's going with treatment. I'll have to tell him nothing has started YET.
Tuesday I have an ultrasound to see if the reason the right breast is red is because it's filling up with fluid and NOT because it's Inflammatory Breast Cancer. I think it's a waste of time, but I'm game.
I can no longer watch the NFL show with Terry Bradshaw without remembering him in his naked room in "Failure to Launch". A naked TB is NOT something you want in your head for ANY length of time.
Oh...the Steelers held on for the win. GO STEELERS!
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Suesan, YIKES! Why didn't I see that coming? I always thought you to be an optomist. This must have just started. Buy your dishes and enjoy them no matter what they cost. You'll be around for years cause you are just stubborn and God really loves you.
I am glad you got THAT out of your system.
I too watched the game last night seated on the edge of my most comfortable chair, screaming at my TV like they could actually hear me. Jeff was upstairs and I went downstairs to get something and I screamed on the top of my lungs OMG, an interception, a touchdown. Jeff and I ran into each other on the living room level staring at the TV for the replay. Unbelievable, the Steelers did it. And to top it off, I gave tickets to Chris and Carolyn so they got to see a fantastic finish. Then I went to bed I was so exhausted from yelling. :) Getting old I guess. Well, Suesan, I will talk to you soon. Thanks for the update and let me know how today goes. Hang in there, we're all here for you.
Lin
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